The singing drama
Posted By Luana on July 2, 2010
I completed 2 art commissions today (for my friend Kassandra) and I’m pretty satisfied with the result. 
I need to do some more clean-up on the “Halloween Ruby” one, but overall, the coloring came out as soft and greeting-card-like as I wanted. I’m glad I’m not that rusty after all! XD
COMMISSION – Halloween Ruby by *LuanaTF on deviantART
COMMISSION – Christmas Rose by *LuanaTF on deviantART
I joined the NaNoWriMo website two days ago, because I’m more than determined to enter that competition this year. =) I’m thinking of some possible plots already, so I can start writing as November begins. Can hardly wait!
What else? I just ended a two-hours long conversation on the phone with my hubby Simmy. It was lovely. ^.^ It gave both of us a chance to spend time together, to vent on each other, cuddle and laugh and plan things for the next weeks, and I must say I do feel a lot more relaxed now… especially after the hurt my sister caused.
You see, I have always had a deep love in singing, and I’ve been part of a Church chorus for 9 years before quitting because I was too busy and because most chorus members were quitting as well. My voice is not the greatest on Earth, but people used to say it was lovely to listen to, and so I kept on feeding this hobby of mine, until my sister took all of the available “singing hours” at home (hours in which nobody is sleeping/studying/working) and I let her because she said she wanted to turn that hobby into a future career. That meant the end of my singing days, excepting Sundays at Church, where I kept singing, even though not as a part of a choir. Now, three days ago, I went to Rome with my sister to replace a friend of hers – who couldn’t come to the singing lesson my sister had paid to her as a birthday present – and listen to my sister sing as well. I didn’t really want to, because my shyness has grown tick on me since I quit singing, and I was almost certain to mess up and get laughed at. Well, it didn’t happen. The teacher told me I’ve got a good voice, that I’m a soprano, that my voice is well settled and tuned, and that the only trouble I need to overcome is my tick shyness. Even so, he was very objective about it, he didn’t favourite any of us… but my sister, at home, acted like I had been complimented more than her, and to say the truth she had been not much of a good company during the whole trip to and from Rome. 
It really hurt me, because all I wanted was spending a good time with her.
Today she ‘attacked’ me again: she had a free lesson with that same teacher on Skype, and since he had seen me around from the webcam, he asked my sister whether I could be given 10 minutes off her lesson time to revise notes and pitches with him, and that my sister and I could make a duet at the end of the course; I refused, because I know that’s my sister’s dream and I didn’t want to intrude. After the lesson, I asked my sister to tell her teacher, next time, that I’m no longer interested in the course, so that he could focus on her only and stop mentioning me all the time. What I got from my sister was a cold “You can tell him yourself. After all, he should have realized that you’re not interested in singing.”
I was SHOCKED. O_O And HURT. She’s known about my love for singing for years, and I was the one to introduce her to singing for fun… and that’s what I get from her now?! What hurt me as well, was that she showed no gratitude for my sacrifice, nor the smallest consideration for my feelings.
I know what to do now: I will contact the teacher and I will tell him I’m not going to follow his course this year for lack of money, BUT in two years of time… OH YEAH! I’m going to! And without my sister around. I’m done dealing with her selfishness. I love her because she’s my sister, but I can’t tolerate being treated this way. So, she can enjoy her singing course now. I will do when my time comes, and believe me, I shall be a little selfish too. She needs to learn a lesson.
P.S. This is a rant-ish entry, I know, but I needed to let this out. Hope it didn’t bore you too much.
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Hi! My name is Luana. I'm a 26 years old Italian girl living in a province of Rome.
I'm engaged to my one and only soulmate Simone (and married to a Transformer, 
Oh, that is ever so cruel. And your own sister, as well.
I’m glad you got to talk to Simmy and had someone to talk to you to take your mind off things.
You spent time with your sister and she should be grateful. She was so rude and I can imagine how much it hurt. I guess, my own mother in the same way, didn’t believe that I loved ballet and piano as much as I do. It hurts so much coming from a family member. You had so much patience with your sister. You haven’t been intruding in her dreams, or at least you’ve been trying not to. She makes it all sound like it is. She is the one who is selfish.
Especially since you were the one who shared the love for singing with her, she doesn’t even show that she’s grateful at all. For supporting her, for coming with her, and for introducing this to her in the first place. I feel for you, I hope she has a wonderful career but I would hate for her to keep treating you like dirt, it would hurt so much with her current lack of appreciation.
RE: I guess my boyfriend’s sister is jealous, argh. I don’t know why she just decided to attack me when she barely knows me. :| And I laughed, you’re right – I am glad we haven’t talked more than a greeting. XD
That’s fine, James was expecting to see other people bagging her out in comments – sigh. I understand we’re all kids at heart, but that was immature! >.<
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Luana Reply:
July 3rd, 2010 at 7:31 pm
We have talked this issue out today, my sister and I. She said she didn’t mean to be nasty and jealous to me, that she meant other things, that I misunderstood, etcetera… I may have misunderstood something, that’s true (she doesn’t speak her mind very well, she often sounds aggressive even when she doesn’t mean to), but the self-centerism that’s part of her personality was not my misunderstanding. I told her we have too different personalities to really get along well, but that I love a lot her nonetheless, somewhat like a daughter of mine, and I forgive her anyway.
She needs to learn how to speak anyway, and to be a little less self-centered, because she hurt me pretty badly these past days. We ended up with a big hug today, and the issue is closed for me. I’m not one to keep a grudge forever. I only hope she’s going to be less aggressive next time.
As for your sister-in-law-to-be, she will eventually mature and get less jealous, but I hope your boyfriend and his parents are going to help her, because jealosy takes a bit to go away. That’s no justification to what she did to you though, and you did well to speak your mind and put her back on her place.
- Luana S.
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Luana!!! I had planned to join that NaNoWriMo thing a long time ago too!!! I *loved* writing and I always wrote snippets of stories, but I just never was able to finish any of my stories. I wanted to join so that I could finally finish one of my life-long goals of writing a novel (no matter how good or crappy it will turn out). I never got the chance to because life got in the way. I wish you luck on the competition and hopefully I can take part someday!
This is crazy. You know how you said we had a lot in common? I have more to add to that list. I first joined choir in elementary school and sang for about 6 years (altogether, not including gaps in between). I LOVE singing. I’m a soprano too (I have great admiration for altos because I could never sing that low and go against the melody. My voice naturally wants to sing high pitches). I quit after high school because when I tried out in college, I was turned down to sing in an “open” choir, where anyone who wanted to join could join. I didn’t like that because it seemed pointless to join a choir like that. I know it might seem a little “high and mighty” of me, but I really set my heart on joining a higher ranked choir, and when I didn’t get in, I kind of gave up on that. In the end, I found out they sang songs that I didn’t like, with a style I wasn’t interested in. So I don’t regret anything and I am too busy with school nowadays. But anyway, sorry long tangent. I mean to say I know exactly what you mean when you say you love singing. When I was younger my parents made me cry because they told me to give up choir. They said it was a pointless hobby and it would never get me anywhere. People just don’t understand how singing can really be a wonderful hobby and set you free.
Sorry your sister was not understanding at all. I have a brother myself and we sometimes clash against each other a lot. Even though they can really get on our nerves and sometimes we never want to see them again, somehow we just end up loving and forgiving them.
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Sorry sis, for neglecting you.
I love the art. I mean it’s absolutely and amazingly and fabulously and whatever-except-ugly-ly NICE! It’s pretty and beautiful. It’s very detailed and you didn’t miss a single detail on it. GOOD JOB!
Wow. You sang before? I’ve tried singing before but for a rock song I would sing all pop-ly but for a pop song I would sing all rock-ly. I’m absolutely a ninny in singing. But awww, how bad of your sister!
Really, I’m sure she’s plain jealous of you. But you are a fine girl, good or bad in singing!
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Well thanks, at least I know I’m doing something right (: Both movies are great (: I don’t plan on reading the books. I’m more of a movie person, ahah.
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Haha thank you for analysing the wishlist for me. Yeah, you are right. I don’t need the iPhone, really. It’s just a luxury item that I wish I can own.
I’ve bought a gift for Leon and it’s a pen with engravings on it (don’t tell him! XD) but I think I’m going to add another gift to that one and I plan to get a LEGO toy set. I hope he’ll like them.
Haha, don’t worry too much about getting Mexier all done in a rush. I know you’ve got things at hand so just take them one at a time.
I love those art commissions you did! I wish I can draw as good as you. *sigh* Guess I just don’t have the talent for it. :/
Oh goodness! That’s not nice of your sister to do that to you. My sister does the same too to me sometimes and I hate that. I normally tolerate her rudeness to me but there are times when I think she has stopped respecting me. I know I am not the best sister in the world, but I am still her older sister and she should show me some respect. I think your sister needs a lesson and she ought to learn to respect you as well.
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I so adore you works sis, how’d you have that great talents?
I just wish I'd remember it but I got so busy when I was in da phils, wasn't able to renew it 
Goodluck
I wish I can have some of ur art talent. I just suck, can’t even draw ..
Sis, how’s ur blog PR’s doing? <3 I was sad about pinklalah too.. You are always welcome to use the domain name sis.. anytym u want
I miss talkin to uu
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I think that you should find a way to tell the instructor about your problem, but without sounding whiny. I’m sure you guys could work something out. This is really unfair. :/
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