The singing drama
Posted By Luana on July 2, 2010
I completed 2 art commissions today (for my friend Kassandra) and I’m pretty satisfied with the result. 
I need to do some more clean-up on the “Halloween Ruby” one, but overall, the coloring came out as soft and greeting-card-like as I wanted. I’m glad I’m not that rusty after all! XD
COMMISSION – Halloween Ruby by *LuanaTF on deviantART
COMMISSION – Christmas Rose by *LuanaTF on deviantART
I joined the NaNoWriMo website two days ago, because I’m more than determined to enter that competition this year. =) I’m thinking of some possible plots already, so I can start writing as November begins. Can hardly wait!
What else? I just ended a two-hours long conversation on the phone with my son Simmy. It was lovely. ^.^ It gave both of us a chance to spend time together, to vent on each other, cuddle and laugh and plan things for the next weeks, and I must say I do feel a lot more relaxed now… especially after the hurt my sister caused.
You see, I have always had a deep love in singing, and I’ve been part of a Church chorus for 9 years before quitting because I was too busy and because most chorus members were quitting as well. My voice is not the greatest on Earth, but people used to say it was lovely to listen to, and so I kept on feeding this hobby of mine, until my sister took all of the available “singing hours” at home (hours in which nobody is sleeping/studying/working) and I let her because she said she wanted to turn that hobby into a future career. That meant the end of my singing days, excepting Sundays at Church, where I kept singing, even though not as a part of a choir. Now, three days ago, I went to Rome with my sister to replace a friend of hers – who couldn’t come to the singing lesson my sister had paid to her as a birthday present – and listen to my sister sing as well. I didn’t really want to, because my shyness has grown tick on me since I quit singing, and I was almost certain to mess up and get laughed at. Well, it didn’t happen. The teacher told me I’ve got a good voice, that I’m a soprano, that my voice is well setted and tuned, and that the only trouble I need to overcome is my tick shyness. Even so, he was very objective about it, he didn’t favourite any of us… but my sister, at home, acted like I had been complimented more than her, and to say the truth she had been not much of a good company during the whole trip to and from Rome. 
It really hurt me, because all I wanted was spending a good time with her.
Today she ‘attacked’ me again: she had a free lesson with that same teacher on Skype, and since he had seen me around from the webcam, he asked my sister whether I could be given 10 minutes off her lesson time to revise notes and pitches with him, and that my sister and I could make a duet at the end of the course; I refused, because I know that’s my sister’s dream and I didn’t want to intrude. After the lesson, I asked my sister to tell her teacher, next time, that I’m no longer interested in the course, so that he could focus on her only and stop mentioning me all the time. What I got from my sister was a cold “You can tell him yourself. After all, he should have realized that you’re not interested in singing.”
I was SHOCKED. O_O And HURT. She’s known about my love for singing for years, and I was the one to introduce her to singing for fun… and that’s what I get from her now?! What hurt me as well, was that she showed no gratitude for my sacrifice, nor the smallest consideration for my feelings.
I know what to do now: I will contact the teacher and I will tell him I’m not going to follow his course this year for lack of money, BUT in two years of time… OH YEAH! I’m going to! And without my sister around. I’m done dealing with her selfishness. I love her because she’s my sister, but I can’t tolerate being treated this way. So, she can enjoy her singing course now. I will do when my time comes, and believe me, I shall be a little selfish too. She needs to learn a lesson.
P.S. This is a rant-ish entry, I know, but I needed to let this out. Hope it didn’t bore you too much.
♥ Luana
Hi! My name is Luana. I'm a 25 years old Italian girl living in a province of Rome.
I'm married to my one and only Transformer hubby: 
